I pay for this website to exist. And yet, I don’t make any effort to post consistently. In fact, I’ve done more to mangle what lives here and how the site looks and feels than to write my thoughts.
I spend too much time playing around with AI and site design, and I forgot that I wanted this blog to be an authentic hub for my thoughts and interests. That doesn’t mean no playing around with AI; it just means more time spent writing down my own thoughts in public, no matter how batshit insane they are.
The truth is, for now, there isn’t a soul reading this–and I still hesitate to put myself out there. Some of that choice comes from anxiety, fear, and lack of self-esteem. I won’t know until I make a conscious effort to write more in public.
If I wanted to create content, I need to make the effort. We make the effort as humans for the things we really want. We tend to procrastinate when the task feels like work. I procrastinate on this blog because I don’t feel confident in my writing skills or my ability to add value to a reader.
However, as much as I worry about getting sucked into online slop, I do enjoy finding individuals who consistently create compelling, thought-provoking, and helpful content. Not all the time, obviously, but enough of the time to make me come back for more.
I want to create a space for myself that is fun for me to contribute to and interesting to anyone who may accidentally click on a link to this website. Otherwise, what’s the point of paying for something you’re never going to use?
I will write here at least once a week to try to get the ball rolling. I probably have more to say than I think.
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